I lead no armies, I command nothing save myself, and not always that.

I am lost in my own mind.

I found a favorite artist: Renee Nault.
I have never really been sure about watercolor, but she makes it feel unique.
She does a lot of nature, animals, and mythology. Its a recipe for my loving it.

I just remembered that I am supposed to write reflections for each class session (there is one a week) for my Teaching Social Studies class, and I haven't written one since the middle of september. So I am on catch up mode. Fortunately I have a clear idea of what happened in each class period.

Let me begin here with an important disclaimer: I love my mother will all of my heart, there is nothing I wouldn't do for her and I owe her a lot.
That said, she's the person I conflict with the most out of anyone I know, because we're basically emotional opposites. I am exceptionally quiet, introspective, and analytical. She is outgoing, personable, and well, extraverted. It used to upset me, because things she does inherently bother me, like how touchy feely she is. But I've tried to get used to calming myself, or realizing that none of it matters, or not to let it get to me.
I have pretty intense self-control, but sometimes I have a hard time reigning in anger. It'll ignite like a match and I don't really have much to stop myself during the instant that it flares up. I'll say something I don't mean, or even worse, get angry in my head and start thinking negatively.

I'm not sure why I felt like expressing that, beyond that I have to deal with it minorly basically every day of my life.


A subject change:
Halloween is tomorrow. Woot.
I'll have a pretty awesome costume.
After church tomorrow I'm going to see my younger cousin Mallory's play, ive been invited to multiple ones before but never been able to attend. I feel badly because she and her family attend things of mine even though they don't have to. It's just courtesy to reciprocate.
I kind of look forward to it, its a play I was in when I was her age. So it'll be fun.


Before I babble beyond what is necessary, I'll cut off I think.
However, a song. Tiesto is such an amazing trance DJ, he has an awesome collaborative song with Tegan and Sara. It has such a great impression of both their styles: Feel it in my Bones